Yes, you are a mess of gorgeous chaos... I can see it in your eyes. You are not in control, but you are deeply loved by the one who is. Silence the negative thoughts & embrace the truth.
"Your decrees are the theme of my song wherever I lodge. Your word, Lord, is eternal it stands firm in the heavens. To all perfection I see a limit, but your commands are boundless. I am your servant, give me discernment that I may understand your statutes. Direct my foot steps according to your word; let no sin rule over me."